In a van down by the river

Just like that petty wonder

Singularly soaring feathered fleeting flight

Captivated curiosity to hope 

To rest

Snatched too soon 

From too tight grip

Was it tiny guitar broken beyond repair

Was it waking in night's middle to trauma alone

To wake to insecurity

Security gone

Malicious mechanisms biologically imbedded in process

Process disappointment to hope

Hope

Dream

Optimistic optimist open anew

Quench quick pulse 

Soothe sickening sinking 

Calm calamity's creeping

Toward hope in purity 

Realistically 

Hope's reliability 

Step one

Step two

Now foot in front of other 

Now right arm sways to balance another

Now walk 

Now run

In quiet fun

Adventageous adventurer venture to there

Venture to where

Still pace to care

Carefully hope blind

Hope bind

Once more this time

This time to walk 

Step beat

Step beat

Faith rest inside hope box sealed 

Sealed 

It is done

Done 

Done

Highland Duplex III

Had like a bedroom and a half
Little one got the back room to herself
Tiny screamer left to stay with mom's mom

Little one
Things piled high on the bed
deep within lay tiny guitar
Guitar like dad plays
Guitar like dad gave

Then mom fought with her friend
The pile was crushed
And tiny guitar
Gone
Gone
Gone

sicko intro liberty

Because I'm a whitewashed tomb.
Because I ruined his life.
Because I control him.
Because we could never be friends.
Because you're better than me in every way.

I'm terrified.
I stutter.
I forget who I am.
I clam up on the real me.
I overemphasize the significance of your approval.