question the wonder

the balance between believing and doing
between words read and things practiced
sacrifice need be shown through actions
actions unable to take flight for fear
for fear of the backlash
for fear of the not having
not having the needs met as the overdue bills file in
come in
traipse in
have no idea how the unrest and uneasiness will play out
how the questions will be answered
dismissed to the core in light of the anger
in light of the pain
the embarrassment
the harassment
the no-good-thing-can-come-of-you attitude
should thoughts and questions be squashed for the presence of the anger?
do these questions base themselves in anger? in embarrassment?

smiling gentle coos smile the heart
lift the eyebrows furled in deep thought
deep thought of abstract
of doing and thinking
wonder where the wonder will wander to